Today I started going through the box of letters that my dad wrote my mom in their college years. They were full of "I love you"s and promises of forever. I am very well aware of the shit my mom and dad went through with their relationship. Obviously forever didn't happen. There was cheating and many other issues. But it's still beautiful to me. It's amazing to see my dad tell my mom that he wanted to marry her someday and have kids. Because they did that. And no matter how ugly it ended, we are still the amazing products of that time they had.
Reading those letters makes me long for someone to write to. My mom was 22 and had already found the father of her children. They met when she was 19. I am, to say the least, a bit behind her. I can't even imagine my husband being in Huntsville. I really feel like I have a lot to give. Maybe too much. And it gets annoying and a bit sad that I haven't found anyone to share it with. I just felt like writing today, so I updated this blog. HAHA. This has not earned the title of blog. Oh Blogspot how I have neglected thee.
School starts Monday and I'm excited. But nervous for my audition. It;s for Eurydice and I want it mighty bad. I've got some more research to do. Well I guess that's all for right now. Just wanted to get a few thought out in print.

OH HELLO THERE!

I started this blog and have completely neglected it.
I promise I will get it going. Especially since I now have other friends on here too.
Life is pretty good.
I am done with "Scenes From an Execution" for now. We find out in December if we advance. We pretty much know we're gonna advance. The next step is to perform in the competition at Texas State in San Marcos. After that would be nationals in Washington D.C.
That would be so amazing! I'm enjoying my break and love having my evenings back, but I miss my cast.

And oh yeah. I've made a decision to pursue Plus Size modeling, so we'll get a portfolio together and see how that goes.
My grandmother passed away yesterday. She had been fighting cancer for 2 years. This weekend is the funeral. I feel a sense of relief because she was hurting so much.
I learned and insane amount from my grandmother. More about that later.
Promise to update more in the next week.
:)

I am really ready for Christmas!!!

Well Thanksgiving break was just magic.
Right now I'm watching Family Guy. Fucking funny but nothing next to The Simpsons. It doesn't have the simple humor and ease that it does. Just like how no other black comedy will be as good as Friday was. Fuck a Friday After Next...
I got to hang with my loves: Brittney Perry, Sam, Doug and Chantelle. Oh and I CANNOT forget Phoebe! :)
Fun times definitely ensued. Saturday night me and Chantelle were up talking about W E I G H T issues and I had an epiphany. Actually me and her had great conversations Friday and Saturday night until 4 am.
Lately home has just been pretty wonderful. YEAAHAHAHAH
Christmas break is coming. My stupid dumb hate myself ass forgot to bring our new digital camera home.
Right now I could really use a toothpick.
As we speak I am listening to some amazing ass old Eminem freestyle that RJ has on his myspace. purdy tight.
I don't have as many insightful things to say as I thought I did when I started this post. I suck so much sometimes.
But you know what doesn't suck?
NO COUNTRY FOR OLD MEN.
Those who know me are well aware of my great love for men. Especially manly men. Therfore Josh Brolin was the ultimate sex for me in this movie.God damn that is a good looking man.




















There is something very beautiful about a man who looks like a MAN. You might also recognize him as BRAND FROM THE GOONIES. He was such a hottie then too. He's only getting better with age. I'm pissed that this is the only picture I could find of him back then. Ok ok I'll stop talking about him now. god... so lovely.
No Country for Old Men was fucking incredible.




















You wanna know who else is beautiful? This guy... I swear when I make it big in Hollywood me and Shia Labeouf are gonna be a couple. Get ready...




















This man also makes my heart sing...
Don't be confused by the fact that he's married with a child... He is my husband.




Ok enough, this has just turned into me drooling over the male species. Story of my life.

:)

Tomorrow I'm going home to see Regina Spektor. I'm EXTREMELY excited. Well I should be. I don't know. Something isn't right...
I saw her at ACL and amazing is an understatement. I've done a couple of chapters on my novel but since my plug for my computer is completely dead it hasn't been very convienent.
This is National Novel Writing Month. When I get a better grip on my writing I'll explian more what I'm working on.
I'm trying to see if I can get to Europe for Spring Break. Europe is taunting me. It has been for a year now. I GOTTA GET THERE! B O R E D.
Well not that much anymore. I've had a fun week. I'm ready for Christmas break. I want to get some reading and writing done. In all actuality I'm sure I'll only get some eating done...
I typed up my Christmas list for my mom yesterday. There are like 50 items. I always give her a lot to choose from. And some things are combined into one item so it's more like 43784072389 things. I'm ready for my stupid computer to start working again. I don't have much to say...

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Today has not been the best of days.
Too much fucking drama for nor reason. And to top it off I found out that my grandma's cancer has spread and she doesn't have much time left. This is just one of those days that makes me want to curl up into myself and disappear...
I am ready for Christmas break. This town is getting extremely boring and I'm ready for some new exciting classes and a new social life. I haven't really been doing anything lately.
I'm watching "I Love New York 2" right now. I love this stupid ass show. A lot. Ugh. Today just sucks.
But I did re perform a scene in Acting 3 today. I did a good job. It improved a lot. Supposedly my computer is infected with spyware. My computer feels the need to fucking remind me of this every minute. Literally every 60 seconds. Shut up already. I'm in a big fat rut.
Church was great fun this Sunday. I miss EYC. I'm ready for the ski trip. It will be great fun.
Ok I need to study. so.... yeah.